AnathemA

عنوان: AnathemA الجمعة يناير 04, 2008 6:56 am

1. Crestfallen
2. At One with the Earth
3. All Faith Is Lost
4. They Die

1. Crestfallen

I cry a tear of hope but it is lost in helplessness
The darkness eats away at the very embers of my soul
For the deepest love I had has dissolved before my eyes
My sorrow is bleak, I beg for deliverance

Lord, in your mercy, hear my prayer

All emotion is consumed by an inner silence
All grief is unassuaged by disconsulate tears
I want for nothing, I live for nothing
I am waiting to die but I am afraid of dying

Lord, in your mercy, hear my prayer

Crestfallen emotion
Wallowing in guilt
Drowning for evermore

Falling deeper into fear
My inner self is now
a sleeper of stone

Help me.

2. At One with the Earth

The intense grasp death's strangle-hold has over me
confines me to my own personal agony
Set me free, let me go
Release the chilling grasp with which it clutches me

The earth issues it's extreme unction
as I realise my punishment for sin
Enguifed by death for all eternity
In my bones I no longer feel the cold
as the mire unbosoms it's secrets to me

Ubiquitous fetidness, death is everywhere
My God, unshackle me

My suffering grows with increase of my guilt
Destroy devotion. Be at one with the earth
I sink down into the clammy soil
At one with the earth.

3. All Faith Is Lost

As the dawn emerges I cry in grief
Sorrows flow,
the sadness of another day tortures my heart

Life fades. Echoes, voices calling
Within my mind. Shadows. I cry

My senses deteriorated
I break down devoid of hope
All faith is lost. Why live?

I beg for mercy, I plead, tell me
Why? Why me?
Why must I be one of the chosen?

Forgive me for my inquisition
Please answer, I offer my condition
My eyes are closed, I call to the darkness
allowing the gloom to swallow me
I relax

Gripping my soul as I'm extracted from reality
The umbra chills me
I levitate, staring at my inanimate corpse
Drifting towards the eternal bliss
Beckoned by beings superior
Colossal roar of silence deafens me

I disburden myself
Where am I bound?

My trappist ways are forgotten
as peralsized souls cry out for me
Impassive, I atrive for the light
My true self finally manifests
I am found.

4. They Die

All tears, restrained for years
Their grief is confined
Which destroys my mind

An ode to their plight is this dirge
Some yearn for lugubrious silence
Serenity in the image of the coffins

Shall life renew these bodies of a truth?
All death will he annul, all tears assuage?
Fill the void veins of life, again with youth
And wash with an immortal water, age
They die.

1. ...And I lust
2. The sweet suffering
3. Everwake
4. Crestfallen
5. They die

1. ...And I lust

Stately columns standing in solemn rows
Such empty honours are suitable for those
Whose death erases all renown and fame
And vanquishes their glory with their name

Wandering aimlessly through dead filled fields
Rewards are just, who knows what absence yields?

By the golden beauty of dusk
and the sun low in our sky
By the haunting shadows of trees
and graves, mesmerized am I.

Searching deep inside trying to reach my dreams
I see a face stare back at me... oh, so serene.

By the golden beauty of dusk
and the sun low in our sky
By the haunting shadows of trees
and graves, mesmerized am I.

Those whispering shades... sad, silent glades

But not for those whose superior worth
After death extols them to the earth
I would even venture to assume
That one need not build for them a tomb
By human art, since glory heaven sent
Serves them as a living monument

Pain is a far away land,
Misery, a lifetime's journey...
...and I lust for death (judgement).

2. The sweet suffering

As a shadow is cast overhead
I rejoice in the coming of the gloom
Lifting my eyes to view what, to me, is beauty
I decipher what is read in the cloud
The verse is shouting out and ringing in my ears
The claps of thunder, scared? No, me I revere
in the enchantment of mother nature
Her caress it soothes and brings me joy

Kneeling in the rainfall
Wind's whispers beckoning
Inhaling the sweet scent
Elation is overwhelming
The way is dim, but somehow I find it

One by one the victims of life are dwindling
Me, take me... grief no more if death will save me

Take me, save me, show me salvation
Lead me... a sacred path, reinstate creation

Show me joy, grief, pride
and show me your envy

The way is dim but somehow I find it.

3. Everwake

Somniferous whisperings of scarlet fields
Sleep calling me and my dreams are wondrous
My reality abandoned (I traverse afar)
Not a care if I never wake

4. Crestfallen

I cry a tear of hope but it is lost in helplessness
The darkness eats away at the very embers of my soul
For the deepest love I had has dissolved before my eyes
My sorrow is bleak, I beg for deliverance

Lord, in your mercy, hear my prayer

All emotion is consumed by an inner silence
All grief is unassuaged by disconsulate tears
I want for nothing, I live for nothing
I am waiting to die but I am afraid of dying

Lord, in your mercy, hear my prayer

Crestfallen emotion
Wallowing in guilt
and drowning for evermore

Falling deeper into fear
My inner self is now
a sleeper of stone

Help me.

5. They die

All tears restrained for years
Their grief is confined
Which destroys my mind

An ode to their plight is this dirge

Some yearn for lugubrious silence
(It is the) serenity in the image of coffins

Shall life renew these bodies of a truth?
All death will he annul, all tears assuage?
Fill the void veins of life, again with youth
And wash with an immortal water, age

They die.

1. Lovelorn Rhapsody
2. Sweet Tears
3. J'ai Fait Une Promesse
4. They (Will Always) Die
5. Sleepless
6. Sleep In Sanity
7. Scars Of The Old Stream
8. Under A Veil (Of Black Lace)
9. Where Shadows Dance
10. Dreaming: The Romance

1. Lovelorn Rhapsody

I hear your voice
It sings so softly
Curious to join in
A harmony to breathe forevermore

Joyous the one to hear a voice

In fields where grass grows tall
Golden carpets swell and whisper
Autumn trees will weep

Immune to pity, I've grown used to grief
The eternal tear reciprocates

In fields where grass grows tall
Golden carpets swell and whisper
Autumn trees will weep

Dawn breaks open like a wound that bleeds afresh
In bleak misery, the lifeless lie in squander

Love has left me, fled from me
Fragrant lust waits beside and dies
Like flowers that wilt without refreshment
In midday sun I sit and bide time
Adorning me, a lovelorn rhapsody

2. Sweet Tears

In each others arms
We cried together
And your tears tasted sweet

All is not lost
And never to be forgotten

Like a shiver down my spine
The lonely nights keep falling
And I still want you

All is not lost
And never to be forgotten

She's passed away but dreaming
Her soul's awake and screaming
The weeping willow is weeping
And beneath our hearts...
... all joy is sleeping
Our bliss is carried away... sweet tears

3. J'ai Fait Une Promesse

La voie, le saule s'incline dessus du ruisseau,
Comme une personne qui se descend criant pour l'amant.
La voie le saule s'incline dessus du ruisseau,
Comme une personne qui se descend criant pour l'amant.
Me rapelle d'automne précedente, en révérence,
Je m'ai engagé, je m'ai engagé, je m'ai engagé à vous
Je m'ai engagé, je m'ai engagé, I plegded myself to you.

[English translation:]

The way the willow leans over the brook
Like a person dropping down, crying for his lover
The way the willow leans over the brook
Like a person dropping down, crying for his lover
Reminds me of last autumn when, bowing down,
I pledged myself, I pledged myself, I pledged myself to you.
I pledged myself, I pledged myself, I pledged myself to you.

4. They (Will Always) Die

All tears restrained for years
Their grief is confined
Which destroys my mind

An ode to their plight is this dirge

Some yearn for lugubrious silence
Serenity in the image of coffins

Shall life renew these bodies of a truth?
All death will he annul, all tears assuage?
Fill the void veins of life, again with youth
And wash with an immortal water, age

They Die... They will always die

5. Sleepless

And I often sigh
I often wonder why
I'm still here and I still cry

And I often cry
I often spill a tear
Over those not here
But still they are so near

Please ease my burden

And I still remember
A memory and I weep
In my broken sleep
The scars they cut so deep

Please ease my burden
Please ease my pain

Surely without war there would be no loss
Hence no mourning, no grief, no pain, no misery
No sleepless nights missing the dead... Oh, no more
No more war

6. Sleep In Sanity

It is not I who sleeps
It is you who sleeps... you sleep

Insane you sleep, I sleep in sanity

7. Scars Of The Old Stream

Love scars the old stream,
Trailing away from the hills
Where we once lived.

8. Under A Veil (Of Black Lace)

With loving passion, oh your radiance
A serenade I cry
Your silk lined coffin the lachrymatory
To hold a mourner's tears

Ethereal splendor
Pale skin and down cast eyes
Scent of paradise
Like her, forever remains unknown

Through tear stained eyes
My view is growing weaker
Please help my grief be vanquished
Thy bed of roses, funereal drapery
Impale my on your thorns

Celestial splendor
Pale skin and down cast eyes
Farewell autumn kisses
Like her, forever remains unknown

I loved her... but now she's gone
(It's so hard to face)
Overcoming... tender reckoning

If I too depart this earth
I harmony to (our) heaven we'll elope

Heavenly grace with which to ease
The virgin's tears

9. Where Shadows Dance

Oh, ready to un-
Let's go.

The shadows dance;
The culprits fall.
The cold brings shadows;
(They) dance and fall.

10. Dreaming: The Romance

[Instrumental]

1. They die
2. Crestfallen

1. They die

All tears restrained for years
Their grief is confined
Which destroys my mind

An ode to their plight is this dirge

Some yearn for lugubrious silence
(It is the) serenity in the image of coffins

Shall life renew these bodies of a truth?
All death will he annul, all tears assuage?
Fill the void veins of life, again with youth
And wash with an immortal water, age

They die.

2. Crestfallen

I cry a tear of hope but it is lost in helplessness
The darkness eats away at the very embers of my soul
For the deepest love I had has dissolved before my eyes
My sorrow is bleak, I beg for deliverance

Lord, in your mercy, hear my prayer

All emotion is consumed by an inner silence
All grief is unassuaged by disconsulate tears
I want for nothing, I live for nothing
I am waiting to die but I am afraid of dying

Lord, in your mercy, hear my prayer

Crestfallen emotion
Wallowing in guilt
and drowning for evermore

Falling deeper into fear
My inner self is now
a sleeper of stone

Help me.

1. Kingdom
2. Mine is yours to drown in (ours is the new tribe)
3. We, the gods
4. Pentecost III
5. Memento Mori

1. Kingdom

There is a whole mountain
And a river runs through it
If you split my mountain wide
You would find many rivers

Among flocks of non-white doves
And non-temptable mortals
The kingdom is much more real
And the beauty is endless

Only when tightened beyond recall
Is your necklace a blessing
Leave your pearls in the sea
You undeserved bitch
You are not worthy of such a treasure

My hand on your heart, I know there is a beating
In this oh so bleak landscape
There are many mountains
.........but not too much water.

My Kingdom

2. Mine is yours to drown in (ours is the new tribe)

Be smothered in life
Listen, listen, listen
The written word will devour you
And burn your mind
I'm burning your mind
I am entering your soul
My promise to love and caress you
Mirrors destiny and breathes the universe

Before Tomb ........
(Regression)

Taste me
Let the angels wings close
And shield you
I bleed for you

In the shadows and the recesses
You'll find dark
Yearn (me)
From the dark all is revealed
Light sheds through

Bleed with me
We will share the light and dark
Together and more

3. We, the gods

How can you climb a mountain to kill a God?
Why do you cross unknown lands, to kill our Gods?
Why do you build walls.... to starve our Gods?

Is it for the same reason you blind us?
Is this why you punish our children?
And rape our sisters?

When will we drown?
When will we burn?
Will you die with us? I think so

You are slicing your own wrists
You are tearing out your own hearts
And you are drowning your own children

So you can end it
....... Or we will

We are telling them the truth
And revealing all your lies
We do not need to climb a mountain
Or to cross unknown lands.....
....... Because we are Gods
And we will drown you
We will burn your homes

We the people, we the spirits, we the Gods.

4. Pentecost III

[instrumental]

5. Memento Mori

My life's minds plagued by lyssophobia
In a cage solitude locks me in
As the dar blackened walls close in on me
Dementia strikes, there's no turning back

Drowning in the stygian sea
As those voices repeat to me my malediction
Memento Mori
Remember you must die

A gratuitous wraith of violence
Blots out the light of my mind
For on this night someone must pay
For the cost of my life

For me to escape the curse of perdition
This poor, weaker being must receive pain
As you wince at the actions of my sadist ways
And cry at the throes of your moribund state

A Daemon issues your last rites
Pater Noster Upto In Terra
I break, I twist, I burn, I destroy
Memento Mori

As the candle of life, that burned in your heart
Is doused by the grip of death's hand
Asmodeus, the spirit of lust
Bears his necrophile ways
For the wishes of the demon in black
My largesse in life should be immortality
Dislike the weak, mortal humans

But in life there's always death
A multitude are born to be damned
His perdisized body will burn forever
In the scorching flames of Gehenna.

1. Restless Oblivion
2. Shroud Of Frost
3. ...Alone
4. Sunset Of The Age
5. Nocturnal Emission
6. Cerulean Twilight
7. The Silent Enigma
8. A Dying Wish
9. Black Orchid

1. Restless Oblivion

My paralyzed heart
Is bleeding...
My love's torn apart
Desire to be free

A bleak garden to cry
When my inamorato died

Loveless so real
Lifeline of mortality
Condemned to misery
Restless oblivion forever

A bleak garden to cry
When my inamorato died

My visionary dreams are vanquished
Aspirations fade away
Reverence dies within

A bleak garden to cry
When my inamorato died

2. Shroud Of Frost

Undying odyssey... a myriad of times

The soul has seen
Through eyes of heaven
The imperium of earth
There's nothing left to perceive

Help me to escape from this existence
I yearn for an answer... can you help me?
I'm drowning in a sea of abused visions and shattered dreams
In somnolent illusion... I'm paralyzed

Infinity distraction
A pious human disorder
Blind to passage of souls
Conclusion from one remembrance

Help me to escape...

Transfixed... I gaze through my window at a world lying under a shroud of
frost. In a forlorn stupor I feel the burning of staring eyes, yet no one
is here. Detached from reality, in the Knowing of dreams, we know the
entity of ensuing agony waits to clasp us in its cold breast, in an empty
room. We awake and it's true...
I dreamt of the sun's demise, awoke to a bleak
morning. In the emptiness I beheld fate for the dead light is a foretelling
of what will be... I saw a soul drift from life, through death, and arrive
at Elysian fields in welcoming song. Yet I stand in a dusk-filled room
despondently watching the passing of the kindred spirit... and there
is no song... just a delusion of silence.

3. ...Alone

I gave you my soul
You left me dying

Within the walls
Of my mind... alone

The winter serenade
Fell silent to me

4. Sunset Of The Age

Throne of grief
...in a dying essence
Crying beauty
...the fettered aura

Forgotten oceans of hope
...Betrayed a phony
Sullen laughter in unventured paradise

As one forever searching
For landscapes serene
Amidst the sunset of age
With joyous masquerade...
...the summers died

5. Nocturnal Emission

My passion rise... a twilight ride
Stark light of dark night in my eyes

My forlorn lust...
My soul it burns
My forlorn lust...
My soul is burning

Take you now, in my sleep
I want to touch you, to scratch you deep

To leave you scarred...
To see you burn
To leave you scarred...
To see you burning

6. Cerulean Twilight

I'm lying here, oh so peaceful...
...In serene harmony
I'm dreaming yet I feel awake
I'm dreaming yet I am awake

Subjected to pain. Dark screams repent

And in a foreboding rage, a soul will die...
...A soul will die

My mind is burning, I'm burning
I can't feel you anymore
Have I reached my point?
Will I drown in delusion?

The winds fell silent
And in my cerulean twilight
I left myself once again
...it's overwhelming
Suffer yourself, and let me die here awhile

7. The Silent Enigma

In dreamland grandeur
I held mesmerized peace
Innocence breathed again

A mind's escape
Leave walls of tears behind
Ethereal vision haunting still...
The solitude left me blind

Beneath an open sky
Sibilant cries of youth dying
Enslave me with grief

A moonlit era, oblivion's twilight kiss
Wishes in lament
Happiness in a broken vision

Utopia still unborn...

Tormented echoes of a fallen Eden
I longed for her beauty
Yet from dust, she returned
The dream, an enigma... silent

8. A Dying Wish

I bear the seed of ruin
A golden age turned to stone
Elysium... to dust

For this, a tragic journey
A vision of a dying embrace
Scattered earth
Silence...

Where Echonia wept
I sank into the silent desert

Fallen am I,
In the solitude of a broken promise
...I cried alone
My empyrean is a scar
From the memory of her beautiful life
Forever was her name

Fulfillment lost in a lifetime of regret
Ornate peace would cover me
As I would die now...
For one last wish

9. Black Orchid

[Instrumental]

1. The Lord Of Mortal Pestilence
2. Memento Mori
3. In The Name Of The Father
4. Echoes Of Terror

1. The Lord Of Mortal Pestilence

Storm-lord, the Dreaded One
Poison of our worlds
In times of darkness, of death and decay
he grasps dominion all over
His stench hovers as shame
in the house of fraticide

An impressive depravity of a cadaverous epiphany
A profane blasphemy of the darkest atrocity

Welcome me, mortal beings
to a world a cry of fear
Incursions to evil
shattered are your dreams
My breath, a torrid wind
of immortal pestilence
heaves torment, pain and anguish
suffer in your silence

Chaos, no salvation
misery, no redemption
Twisted minds hold the key
Benevolence, I pray for thee

Drowned in fear, shrouded in black
Mourning eternally in a spiritual lethargy

Every beat of his heart
is a death-toll chiming in a mind
As chimes grow stronger
the earth shudders in his wake
His final lament is a
requiem to the Gods of Darkness
All deep contempt is a
blasphemous sacrilege to his name

2. Memento Mori

My life's minds plagued by lyssophobia
In a cage solitude locks me in
As the dark blackened walls close in on me
Dementia strikes, there's no turning back

Drowning in the stygian sea
As those voices repeat to me my malediction
Memento Mori
Remember you must die

A gratuitous wrath of violence blots out the light of my mind
For on this night someone must pay for the cost of my life
For me to escape the curse of perdition, this poor, weaker being must receive
pain
As you wince at the action of my sadist ways and cry at the throes of your
moribund state

A Daemon issues your last rites
Paster Noster Upto In Terra
I break, I twist, I burn, I destroy
Memento Mori

As the candle of light that burned in your heart is doused by the grip of
death's hand
Asmodeus, the spirit of lust bears his necrophile ways for the wishes of the
demon in black
My largesse in life should be immortality dislike the weak, mortal humans

But in life theres <THERE'S?always death
a multitude are born to be damned
His perdisized body will burn forever
in the scorching flames of Gehenna.

3. In The Name Of The Father

[Dream:]
In the world of my subconscious, a realm of the unknown
a vision is carved by the almighty hand
The agony of a thousand souls supressed by life itself
released unto the lord by his command.
My hands are covered with the blood, the blood of his salvation.
His spirit will live eternally

Take his life, by your command.
A sacrifice, by your command.

As I rise from my troubled sleep, I pray the lord my soul to keep
wondering if he has chosen me to do his work, I speak no blasphemy
Do I confess? I am terrified, I cannot run, there is no place to hide
I search for help, but there's nobody there for my dream is now a recurring
...Nightmare

Brother of the holy order, I seek your help
Understand my plight, help me fight this curse that bestows me
My son you must not fight, for this is no cure
but a mission you should undertake
to free a soul from the grasp of
...Satan

So that night I did dream of mysteries untold
In the presence of the heavens was I
I could see for myself all the evils of the world
in all their morbid glory
Men took part in rites to praise the black messiah
the beast they call "The Evil One"
As voices in my head did tell me of my task
To release the soul of my only son

[Spirit voices:]
Take his life, by your command.
A sacrifice, by your command.
Fill the chalice, cleanse the soul
Save him now, in the chapel of salvation
[repeat]

[Possession:]
Insanity dwells in the mind of a man who will take the life of his only son
Screaming and pounding inside his head as voices whisper... It must be done

4. Echoes Of Terror

Existence, throught a spirit's will
A force, use the power of evil

Darkness, visualize
As light pierces through your yearning eyes

Rebirth of a lost soul
Your body, a channel with witch to grow old

Mephitic, smell of death
Rancid flesh, of the undead

Inner screams,
Useless tears,
Shattered bones.
My prayer...
"Oh Lord...
...Help me die."

"Please help me die."

This inner gloom,
A subterrainean hell.
A morbid sleep,
In my stygian world.
My mind is locked,
At chains my thoughts.
I pray for death.
Euthanasize my soul.

Sanctify me!

Epitaph, to mankind
Engraved, on your mind

Stigmata, on the flesh.
Dead images, put to rest.

1. Sentient
2. Angelica
3. The Beloved
4. Eternity Part I
5. Eternity Part II
6. Hope
7. Suicide Veil
8. Radiance
9. Far Away
10. Eternity Part III
11. Cries On The Wind
12. Ascension
13. Far Away (Acoustic)
14. Eternity Part III (Acoustic)
15. Sleepless '96

1. Sentient

[Intro]

[Music: D.Cavanagh, Arranged: Les Smith]

2. Angelica

Where are you tonight?
Wild flower in starlit heaven
Still enchanted in flight
Obsessions lament to freedom

A timeless word, the meanings changed
But I'm still burning in your flames,
Incessant, lustral masquerade,
Unengaged, dim lit love didn't taste the same

And I still wonder if you ever wonder the same
And I wonder...

[Lyrics: D.Patterson, Music: D.Cavanagh]

3. The Beloved

Another day unfolds, still I exist
Never felt so cold, I never knew I was turning away
Though I can't explain, I only love you now that your missed
As I stand in the rain, just leave me to go through this

I don't think I could face another sleepless night
If only I could trace that elusive light
In a dreamland flight to your agonizing eyes
A never ending flight, my silent cries

Still I close my eyes and my mind becomes clear
Still I dream, and there you are...
How still you lie and how your eyes bring back the fear
Still I can't face what's going on in here...

Everything that I've ever felt has gone
At last my spirit breathes
I see no point in going on
So goodbye... It's time for me to leave

[Lyrics: V.Cavanagh, Music: D.Cavanagh]

4. Eternity Part I

As I turn away from a life so grey
Where have all the flowers gone?
Just what went wrong?

Innocence, insanity, irony
Stone cold reality
Oh lord come and save me

Do you think we're forever?

I've been in tears
Hope has died in me
But now I'm here, I don't wish to leave

Trapped in time
A mirage of hope and change
A swirling mass, no mercy now
If the truth hurts prepare for pain

Do you think we're forever?

The unseen, the eternal river of understanding
Persevering, dying escape
Forever tempting fate
Take me back

A flood of tears bonding my soul with my mind
A dream of love, reality closing in behind
As I close my eyes, the vision dies
As I bid my last farewell to mankind

The unseen, the eternal...

[Lyrics & Music: D.Patterson]

5. Eternity Part II

Destiny, Infinity, Eternity

[Lyrics & Music: D.Patterson]

6. Hope

"I was not put here by anyone in fear
I came alone as me
Just an idea in a long chain of discovery
Surrounded by the same you

Sometimes your tide pulls me out to sea
And I die in a thrashing curse
Sometimes we are kind
More often, I doze
So far up the beach that those who try to reach are burnt alive in the searing
heat of the desert of my dispassion
So far removed, I never hear the water
'Cept once or twice a month when I see a mirror

And I refuse to believe in some of the things that are said to be here
Let alone those that are not
I'm trying to change my direction
Ours is pathetic in my own humble estimation

I love the planet
The great benign she-wolf
Benefactor
Spinning gently on towards the red giant four aeons hence
When all the rose gardens are consumed in the flash-fire of flying time
She'll leave alone to you"

When you look at me
From your own century
I may seem to be
Strange archeology
But when the winds blow
From this direction
You may sense that I'm
In your reflection
I think I feel you
But I will never know
As the swallows leave
And the children grow

I wanted to live forever
The same as you will too
I wanted to live forever
And everybody knew

When I caught you there
In tomorrows mirror
I thought I felt you
Jump out of my skin
Throwing oil into
My blazing memories
Filling empty footsteps
I was standing in

I wanted to live forever
The same as you will too
I wanted to live forever
And everybody knew

As the falling rain
Of the northern jungle
Hanging droplets on the leaves
Bombards my brain
I hear you
Across the room
A sea of daffodils spring into bloom
You are the mist
The frost across my window pane
And again

She moves her body
And her whispers weave
And the world spins
And tells me that I'll never want to leave

As I think of you
From this dark century
I will always be
With generosity
That we both may share
The hope in hearing
That we're not just
Spirits disappearing

[Spoken word transcribed by Phil Morgan. These aren't a part of the original lyrics of "Hope"]

[Lyrics & Music: Harper/Gilmour]

7. Suicide Veil

A sacrifice in the flight of dawn
The beauty of twisted reality
In my heart, my dreams

A sacrifice for freedom
Alone in the grace of the dark
The pains of a failed generation

I longed for the death of the sun
Another glorious revelation
Destiny's plan for ruin

I danced with the shadows
In tranquil chaos, I lay naked in the rain
An interception of light
A disturbing memory
This suicide veil I wear in shame

[Lyrics: D.Patterson, Music: D.Patterson & D.Cavanagh]

8. Radiance

Inside...
The dark is fading away
I don't want to be alone anymore

Inside...
The light of dawn is here once more

The light...
Darkness is slipping away

Of dawn...
I don't want to be alone

Is here...
Won't you stay?

Not a word passed your lips
Just a golden kiss
As I whispered silently
"Help me through this"

[Lyrics & Music: D.Cavanagh]

9. Far Away

One common, subterranean destination
One life, another day
A vestal child unveiled by temptation
Innocence slips away

Far away

Been down so long
Too deep the water that I tread
Sometimes I feel myself going under
Sometimes I envy the dead

So take me far away

[Lyrics & Music: D.Patterson]

10. Eternity Part III

So little time
Your crystal eyes gaze into mine
A burning flame
Forever dreaming, dreaming a lie

Trapped inside internal eyes
Caressed by innocence, a sanctuary for your mind
Born alone beneath pale sardonic skies
One love, one life, one sorrow

I won't reproach myself this time
A condemned man, granted a sweet reprieve
A turn of fate, a genial twist of the knife
Undying affection for life

[Lyrics & Music: D.Patterson]

11. Cries On The Wind

Reaching out...
How things look different on the way down
Disillusioned, I've lost desire
Will I burn in the unforgiving fire?

From the flames, I walk away
I've found a way to erase the pain
An empty bottle, my receptacle
A guardian angel called escape

Don't dwell on the forthcoming
As I know it won't be happening
And you know, when I'm gone
You'll hear my cries on the wind

[Lyrics: D.Patterson, Music: D.Cavanagh & D.Patterson]

12. Ascension

[Instrumental]

[Music: D.Cavanagh]

13. Far Away (Acoustic)
14. Eternity Part III (Acoustic)

15. Sleepless '96

1. One Of The Few
2. Better Off Dead
3. Goodbye Cruel World
4. Roads
5. Some Velvet Morning

1. One Of The Few

[Anathema]

[Bad Religion cover]

When you're one of the few to land on your feet
What do you do to make ends meet?
Teach
Make 'em mad, make 'em sad, make 'em add two and two
Oh make 'em me, oh make 'em you, make 'em do what you want them to
Make 'em laugh, make 'em cry, make 'em lie down and die

2. Better Off Dead

[Anathema]

[Bad Religion cover]

I'm sorry about the sun,
how could I know that you'd burn?,
and I'm sorry about the moon,
how could I know that you'd disapproved,
I'll never make the same mistake,
the next time I create the universe I'll make sure we communicate at length
but until then . . . better off dead,
a smile on the lips and a hole in the head,
better off dead, yeah better than this,
better off dead, yeah better than this,
take it away cause there's nothing to miss
I'm sorry about the world,
how could I know you'd take it so bad?,
and I'll never make the same mistake,
the next time I create the universe I'll make sure you participate
But until then . . .
Better off dead, yeah better off dead,
why don't you try pushing daisies instead
and I'll never make the same mistake,
the next time I create the universe I'll make sure we communicate,
just in case.

3. Goodbye Cruel World

[Anathema]

[Pink Floyd cover]

Goodbye cruel world
I'm leaving you today
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye all you people
There's nothing you can say
To make me change my mind
Goodbye

4. Roads

[My Dying Bride]

Can't anybody see
You've got a war to fight
Never found our way
Regardless of what they say
How can it feel, this wrong
From this moment
How can it feel, this wrong
Storm.. in the morning light
I feel
No more can I say
Frozen to myself
I got nobody on my side
And surely that ain't right
And surely that ain't right
Can't anybody see
You've got a war to fight
Never found our way
Regardless of what they say
How can it feel, this wrong
From this moment
How can it feel, this wrong
How can it feel, this wrong
From this moment
How can it feel, this wrong
Can't anybody see
We've got a war to fight
Never found our way
Regardless of what they say
How can it feel, this wrong
From this moment
How can it feel, this wrong

5. Some Velvet Morning

[My Dying Bride]

Some velvet morning when I'm straight.
I'm gonna open up your gate.
And maybe tell you 'bout Phaedra
and how she gave me life
and how she made it in.
Some velvet morning when I'm straight.
Some velvet morning when I'm straight.
I'm gonna open up your gate.
And maybe tell you 'bout Phaedra
and how she gave me life
and how she made it in.
Some velvet morning when I'm straight.
Flowers are the things we knew.
Secrets are the things we grew.
Learn from us very much.
Look at us but do not touch.
Phaedra is my name.
Some velvet morning when I'm straight.
I'm gonna open up your gate.
And maybe tell you 'bout Phaedra
and how she gave me life
and how she made it in.
Some velvet morning when I'm straight.

1. A Dying Flame
2. The End... And Here We All Die
3. Nightfall
4. Princess Of Twilight
5. Into The Unknown
6. Memento Of Emotions
7. The Beautiful Flow Of An Autumn Passion
8. Dirge Of The Masquerade

1. A Dying Flame

As I slowly close my eyes
I can see what I once had
Screaming out loud but no one hears
Surrounded by emptiness
I clench my teeth to hold back the tears

The fire that burned is now dying down
I cannot hope no more
Do not dare to believe
Erased emotions, denial of lust
I fear the pain of being left alone

Lies to myself, just want to forget
Years of joy turns to despair
Tries to get through the mist of love
And I cry along the way

Thoughts goes around in my bitter mind
Confused, tries to understand
My soul is empty, Im dying inside
I want to find the path that leads back to life

2. The End... And Here We All Die

Guilty, guilty as sin
Guilty of putrefaction
Feels it tearing up the heart and soul
Of the world that I once knew

I blame you humanity
Now its gone
The world is crying
And here we all die

Leaving footprints filled with despair
Storming through what was so beautiful
All I see is ashes of life and beauty

You will never see another day

Marching like thousands of soldiers
Destroying everything
The sun turns black in front of my eyes
The moon is crying

A disease without vaccin
Spreads like wildfire
I call you guilty
But do you know what it is

I blame you
You are guilty
Guilty of putrefaction
This is the end

3. Nightfall

The night is falling over the darkest souls
Infinity is calling out
To everyone who knows the pain of hearts broken
The agony of one word spoken
A story told of suffering and pain
Of love and hate
A lullaby of lies and blame

A time of dreams we shared
The love we made on the darkest night
Shining through the shallow mind
Deceiving voices telling lies
The truth never spoken
An endless choir of sighs

Sun is rising on another day
Watching shadows disappear
Whispered secrets in the shallow mind
Screaming, crying, missing, fear

Night is falling over the darkest souls

4. Princess Of Twilight

My blood I gave to thee my love
So pale and beautiful
My creature of the night

Darkness calls you to me
Enchanting eyes cold as ice
Looking right through me

My soul you took away

Kisses filled me, emptying me of my being

My luscios vampire
You beauty of night
Take my hand and lead me
To the grave of light

Rivers of blood
Running from your eyes
Oh why, my love
Cant you take me
Oh why, my love
Wont you slay me

So pale and beautiful
My creature of the night
Take my soul and lead me into twilight

5. Into The Unknown

As I roam along the path
Between life and death
Shattered dreams
Seem to be all there is left

So please bring me forth
And show me the way
Be my guide and lead me right

Bursting out in tears
As the agony lays heavy on my shoulders
And misery burns like a fever inside me

Memories that should be buried and forgotten
Haunts me when I sleep
An emotionally devastating nightmare
That never seems to end

This tragedy in wich I live
Harvest the last pieces
That are left of my miserable soul
This endless sorrow of mine devours me slowly
So please bring me forth
And show me the way
Be my guide and lead me right

6. Memento Of Emotions

Oh beloved one
You have given me precious memories
Which I will always remember
You are and shall forever be in my dreams
My everything...
You seduced me and found the key to the portal
The portal that leads
To the very depth of my heart
With a sweet caress
You opened the gate of eternal lust
My everything...

In a divine spell I was held
Almost as in a fairytale
Embraced by your love, body and lust
My everything...

...Deeper and deeper I sink
Into the mist of melancholy
Fragments of precious moments we had
In memory forever
In dreams and imagination

An everyday growing emptiness
Hurts as if a piece of my life has vanished
Dismal thoughts of desolation
Grieves in my mind

I cry tears in solitude
I cry my tears for the loss of my everything

The pain inside from a broken heart
Tears my soul apart
The greatest passion of all
Fading away

Forever lost...
Emotions which now
Only seem to exist in my dreams
Emotions which now seems to be
Forever lost

7. The Beautiful Flow Of An Autumn Passion

The beautiful flow
Of an autumn passion
Silently embraces In its mistful darkness

The october moon
Spreads its pale dim light
Like a silken caress
Over the midnight landscape

The beautiful flow
Of an autumn passion
So pure and vast
Like the sky of an october night

In an almost mysterious tranquillity
A glorious moment of passion
Takes its shape
In the great season of tragedy

The beautiful flow
Of an autumn passion
Silently embraces
In its mistful darkness

The beautiful flow of an autumn passion

8. Dirge Of The Masquerade

A whisper of fantasies
Like choires in the wind
Graceful sweet poetry
In the ear of the lover

A poem of bloodstained roses
Shared in an oath
A serenade of desire
And celestial lust

Enchanting voices dying
Soon to be gone
Slowly sleeping away
Never to be heard again

Crimson love set ablaze
By the velvet words that are spoken
In a masquerade of deceitfull illusions

Tasting the nectars of passion
Given by the scarlett woman
Of the everlasting masquerade
Diabolic and seducing
As a spell of the passionate sirens

Promised eternal passion
Fallen in debris
Never to be forgotten
The end of lovers dream

A sombre portrait
Of a dreaming lover
Pledged to a bride
Of the masquerade

...and so the princess of twilight
disappeared into the unknown.
And then when nightfall came
the beautiful flow of an autumn passion
faded away like a dying flame.
The only memento of emotions
she left was the dirge of the masquerade

1. Shroud Of False
2. Fragile Dreams
3. Empty
4. Lost Control
5. Re-Connect
6. Inner Silence
7. Alternative 4
8. Regret
9. Feel
10. Destiny
11. Your Possible Pasts
12. One Of The Few
13. Better Off Dead
14. Goodbye Cruel World

1. Shroud Of False

We are just a moment in time
A blink of an eye
A dream for the blind
Visions from a dying brain
I hope you don't understand

[Lyrics & Music: D.Patterson]

2. Fragile Dreams

Countless times I trusted you,
I let you back in,
Knowing... Yearning... you know
I should have run... but I stayed

Maybe I always knew
My fragile dreams would be broken... for you

Today I introduced myself
To my own feelings
In silent agony, after all these years
They spoke to me... after all these years

Maybe I always knew
My fragile dreams would be broken... for you

[Lyrics & Music: D.Cavanagh]

3. Empty

Empty vessel under the sun wipe the dust
from my face another morning black Sunday
coming down again.. coming down again
Empty vessel empty veins
empty bottle wish for rain that pain again
wash the blood off my face the pulse from my brain
And I feel that pain again

I'm looking over my shoulder cause millions
will whisper I'm killing myself again
Maybe I'm dying faster but nothing ever last I
remember a night from my past when I was
stabbed in the back and its all coming back
And I feel that pain again

I abhor you I condemn you cause this pain
will never end you got away without a
scratch and now you're walking on a lucky
path I have to laugh but you'd better watch
your back

there's pathetic opposition they're the
cause of my condition I'll be coming back
for them I've a solution for this sad
situation nothing left but to kill myself again
Because I'm so empty

[Lyrics & Music: D.Patterson]

4. Lost Control

Life.. has betrayed me once again
I accept that some things will never change.
I've let your tiny minds magnify my agony
and it's left me with a chemical dependency for sanity.

Yes, I am falling... how much longer 'till I hit the ground?
I can't tell you why I'm breaking down.
Do you wonder why I prefer to be alone?
Have I really lost control?

I'm coming to an end,
I've realized what I could have been.
I can't sleep so I take a breath and hide behind my bravest mask,
I admit I've lost control
Lost control...

[Lyrics & Music: D.Patterson]

5. Re-Connect

The fragments of connection died
Some things just won't fade with time
Hide behind a transparent eye
You can't see me but I can you...
Betray without a moment's thought
Regret nothing but getting caught
Your time has come and here I stand
Why should I hold out my hand to you...

I could never turn to you
Silenced by that look in your eye
Feel I'm slipping back again

Black cold night I toss and turn I'm sinking, feel so
...drained
Shroud me, blind me, sick, weak, empty, drag me
...into pain
I tried so hard, don't drown me, bound to me,
self indulgently ...crazed
Black as coal, my sunken soul, will it ever be
...saved?

Come on and twist that knife again
Well I'd like to see you fucking try
Never going back again

An answer won't come from me
Confront your own worst enemy
What does your mirror see
Is it time to face up to me?

[Lyrics & Music: V.Cavanagh]

6. Inner Silence

When the silence beckons
And the day draws to a close
When the light of your life sighs
And love dies in your eyes
Only then will I realize
What you mean to me.

[Lyrics & Music: D.Cavanagh]

7. Alternative 4

It's killing you, you're killing me
I'm clinging on to my sanity
All I need is a short term remedy
Come and hide me from this terrible reality...

Dreaded memories flood back to me
But there's still a willful mind behind these cold
psychotic eyes
Now I tread this path so differently
I've opened my mind and darkened my entire life.

I'll dance with the angels to celebrate the holocaust,
And far beyond my far gone pride,
Is knowing that we'll soon be gone,
Knowing that I'll soon be gone...

[Lyrics & Music: D.Patterson]

8. Regret

As I drift away... far away from you,
I feel all alone in a crowded room,
Thinking to myself
"There's no escape from this
fear,
regret,
loneliness..."

Visions of love and hate
A collage behind my eyes
Remnants of dying laughter
Echoes of silent cries

I wish I didn't know now that
I never knew then...
Flashback
Memories punish me again
Sometimes I remember all the pain
that I have seen
Sometimes I wonder what might
have been...

Visions of love and hate
A collage behind my eyes
Remnants of dying laughter
Echoes of silent cries

And sometimes I despair
At who I've become
I have to come to terms
With what I've done

The bittersweet taste of fate
We can't outrun the past
Destined to find an answer
A strength I never lost
I know there is a way
My future is not set
For the tide has turned
But still I never learned to live
without regret.

[Lyrics & Music: D.Cavanagh]

9. Feel

I've feeling, I won't be coming down from this,
I was searching through the heavens and somehow I slipped!

I feel, I'm seeing so clear

Trying to forget tomorrow and all that's happened
This is not the way, the way I was meant to be

I feel, I'm seeing so clear
I thought I was never going to die
I feel, I'm seeing so clear
We need more time

Slipping away, I think I'm gonna crack
Misplaced trust, loyalty stabbed in the gut

I feel, I'm seeing so clear
I thought I was never coming back

I've been down for awhile,
And now I'm coming back...

[Lyrics & Music: D.Patterson]

10. Destiny

I tried to murder the lonely,
Contemplate our mortality.

Into infinity,
Frozen memory

Wipe the tears from yesterday,
A time for change, take the pain away.

Angel, my destiny,
Can you feel me?

[Lyrics & Music: D.Patterson]

11. Your Possible Pasts

[Digipack Bonus]

[Pink Floyd, from "The Final Cut"]

They flutter behind you your possible pasts
some bright-eyed and crazy some frightened and lost
a warning to anyone still in command
of their possible future to take care
in derelict sidings the poppies entwine
with cattle trucks lying in wait for the next time
Do you remember me? how we used to be?
do you think we should be closer?
She stood in the doorway the ghost of a smile
haunting her face like a cheap hotel sign
her cold eyes imploring the men in their macs
for the gold in their bags or the knives in their backs
stepping up boldly one put out his hand
he said, " I was just a child then now I'm only a man"
Do you remember me? how we used to be?
do you think we should be closer?
By the cold and religious we were taken in hand
shown how to feel good and told to feel bad
tongue tied and terrified we learned how to pray
now our feelings run deep and cold as the clay
and strung out behind us the banners and flags
of our possible pasts lie in tatters and rags
Do you remember me? how we used to be?
do you think we should be closer?

12. One Of The Few

[Digipack Bonus]

[Pink Floyd, from "The Final Cut"]

When you're one of the few to land on your feet
what do you do to make ends meet?
teach
make them mad, make them sad, make them add two and two
make them me, make them you, make them do what you want them to
make them laugh, make them cry, make them lie down and die

13. Better Off Dead

[Digipack Bonus]

[Bad Religion]

I'm sorry about the sun
How could I know that you would burn?
And I'm sorry about the moon
How could I know that you'd disapproved?
And I'll never make the same mistake
So next time I create the universe
I'll make sure we communicate at length
Oh yeah
But until then... better off dead
A smile on the lips and a hole in the head
Better off dead, it's better than this
Take it away cuz there's nothing to miss
I'm sorry about the world
How could I know you'd take it so bad?
And I'll never make the same mistake
So if you're looking for a patsy
why not try the entire human race
Just to play it safe
Until then... better off dead
A smile on the lips and a hole in the head
Better off dead, better than this
Take it away cuz there's nothing to miss
Better off dead, better off dead
Why don't you try pushing daisies instead
Better off dead, better off dead
A smile on the lips and a hole in the head
And I'll never make the same mistake
The next time I create the universe
I'll make sure you participate
Oh yeah
And I'll never make the same mistake
The next time I create the universe
I'll make sure we communicate at length
Just in case

14. Goodbye Cruel World

[Pink Floyd from "The Wall"]

Goodbye, cruel world,
I'm leaving you today.
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.

Goodbye all you people,
There's nothing you can say,
To make me change my mind.
Goodbye

1. Deep
2. Pitiless
3. Forgotten Hopes
4. Destiny Is Dead
5. One Last Goodbye
6. Make It Right
7. Parisienne Moonlight
8. Don't Look Too Far
9. Emotional Winter
10. Wings Of God
11. Judgement
12. Anyone, Anywhere
13. 2000 & Gone
14. Transacoustic

1. Deep

Feel my heart burning
Deep inside... yearning
I know it is coming

A fettered heart, waking
Tainted youth, fading
Leave it all behind
Delirious again
Mesmerize my senses
Souls entwine one more time

All our times will come
Searching oblivion
Leaving nothing but the memories of
All the things you give
They're all you'll leave behind
Within their mind

Open laughter held in distant days
Eternal stars have changed
I know that it can't be the same
There's no romance for you tonight

Feel my heart burning
Deep inside... yearning
I know it is coming

All our times will come
Searching oblivion
Leaving nothing but the memories of
All the things you give
They're all you'll leave behind
Within their mind

Time recedes every day
You can search your soul but you won't see
As we pass ever on and away
Towards some blank infinity

[Lyrics: V. Cavanagh, Music: D. Cavanagh & D. Pybus]

2. Pitiless

Is it the emptiest of
All your broken hearted feelings
A serious misconception
To choose a path that led to ruin

I live for today
Can't get away from the burning inside
Ashes to ash
Dust to dust

So quick to point the finger
When you're the source of your condition
Why should I feel sympathy
When you only show me nothing

I live for today
Can't get away from the burning inside
Ashes to ash
Dust to dust

I could stare for a thousand years
Penetrate your deepest fears
Leave you cold with a faceless embrace
Then disappear without a trace

I live for today
Can't get away from the burning inside
Ashes to ash
Dust to dust

[Lyrics: V. Cavanagh & D. Pybus & J. Douglas, Music: D. Cavanagh]

3. Forgotten Hopes

Hey you.. rotting in your alcoholic shell
Banging on the walls of your intoxicated mind
Do you ever wonder why you were left alone
As your heart grew colder and finally turned to stone

Did I punish you for dreaming?
Did I break your heart and leave you crying?
Do you ever dream of escaping?
Don't you ever dream of escaping...

Pathetic oblivion
Forgotten hopes buried in your soul's lonely grave
Pathetic oblivion
Remember how you were before you locked your heart away

Did I punish you for dreaming?
Did I break your heart and leave you crying?
Do you ever dream of escaping?
Don't you ever dream of escaping...

[Lyrics & Music: D. Cavanagh]

4. Destiny Is Dead

[Instrumental]

[Music: D. Cavanagh & D. Pybus]

5. One Last Goodbye

How I needed you
How I grieve now you're gone
In my dreams I see you
I awake so alone

I know you didn't want to leave
Your heart yearned to stay
But the strength I always loved in you
Finally gave way

Somehow I knew you would leave me this way
Somehow I knew you could never.. never stay
And in the early morning light
After a silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
And I grieve

In my dreams I can see you
I can tell you how I feel
In my dreams I can hold you
And it feels so real

I still feel the pain
I still feel your love
I still feel the pain
I still feel your love

And somehow I knew you could never, never stay
And somehow I knew you would leave me
And in the early morning light
After a Silent peaceful night
You took my heart away
I wished, I wished you could have stayed

[Lyrics & Music: D. Cavanagh]

6. Make It Right

I know that I want you
I know that I need you
But I can't pretend that
This'll make it right

You whisper your name
But I can't hear you
Don't leave me behind
Lend me your hand

I can feel them
I think they're closing in
Don't leave me behind
Lend me your hand

Let me feel you
By my side
Be where I can hear you
I long to feel

[Lyrics & Music: J. Douglas]

7. Parisienne Moonlight

I feel I know you
I don't know how
I don't know why

I see you feel for me
You cried with me
You would die for me

I know I need you
I want you to
Be free of all the pain
You hold inside

You cannot hide
I know you tried
To be who you couldn't be
You tried to see inside of me

And now I'm leaving you
I don't want to go
Away from you

Please try to understand
Take my hand
Be free of all the pain
You hold inside

You cannot hide
I know you tried
To feel...
To feel...

[Lyrics & Music: D. Cavanagh]

8. Don't Look Too Far

If I begin to feel lighter
Hold me down
And I'll be yours for evermore

God bless this mess I'm in
For it is time
To be rid of a certain sin

A cool breeze down my spine
And if I'm really here
Then I feel fine

A freelance child
You bring it all back
This world is eating me inside

Don't look too far
Don't look too far

Missing a degree of warmth
A name without a face
I'm losing grip all the same

I sever the line that divides
I sever the feelings inside
I sever between you and me

And I want to learn to fly
Bring the pain right back again
Is this all there is of me

Hearts and minds, find the time
That in the end there was no
Possible reason for anything

Don't look too far
Don't look too far

[Lyrics & Music: J. Douglas]

9. Emotional Winter

Speak to me
For I have seen
Your waning smile
Your scars concealed
So far from home, do you know you're not alone
Sleep tonight
Sweet summer light
Scattered yesterdays, the past is far away

How fast time passed by
The transience of life

Wasted moments won't return
And we will never feel again

Beyond my dreams
Ever with me
You flash before my eyes, a final fading sigh
But the sun will rise
And tears will dry
Of all that is to come, the dream has just begun

And time is speeding by
The transience of life

Wasted moments wont return
And we will never feel again

[Lyrics: V. Cavanagh, Music: D. Cavanagh]

10. Wings Of God

No one can find me
Here in my soul
Kicking and screaming
Out of control

Calm myself down now
Nobody knows
No one can find me
Here in my soul

Hooked on your problems
Do I know why
And if you come my way again
Would I lend a hand
Would I understand

No one can find me
Here in my soul
Kicking and screaming
Out of control

Calm myself down
Nobody knows
No one can find me
Here in my soul

Solitude was never.. never seen as loneliness
And things need.. they need time
And time leads to other things
And playing roles
Which are limited
By the poor fund of knowledge
In this sick, sick world
We all fall down
Once in a while
Escaping the law of the unexplained pains

[Lyrics & Music: J. Cavanagh]

11. Judgement

The inequity of fate
The pains of love and hate
The heart-sick memories
That brought you to your knees

And the times when we were young
When life seemed so long
Day after day
You burned it all away

All the hate that feeds your needs
All the sickness you conceive
All the horror you create
Will bring you to your knees

[Lyrics: V. Cavanagh, Music: D. Cavanagh & J. Douglas]

12. Anyone, Anywhere

No one seems to care anymore
I wander through this night all alone
No one feels the pain I have inside
Looking at this world through my eyes

No one really cares where I go
Searching to feel warmth forever more
The wheels of life they turn without me
Now you are gone... eternally

No...
Don't leave me here
The dream carries on
Inside
I know...
Its not too late
Lost moments blown away
Tonight

Mankind, with your heresy
Can't you see that this is killing me
There's no one in this life
To be here with me at my side

[Lyrics: D. Pybus, Music: D. Douglas & D. Cavanagh]

13. 2000 & Gone

[Instrumental]

[Music: D. Cavanagh & D. Pybus]

14. Transacoustic

[Instrumental]

[Music: D. Cavanagh]

1. Scars Of The Old Stream
2. Everwake
3. J'fait Une Promesse
4. Alone
5. Far Away (Acoustic)
6. Eternity (Part 2)
7. Eternity (Part 3) (Acoustic)
8. Better off Dead
9. One of the Few
10. Inner Silence
11. Goodbye Cruel World
12. Destiny
13. The Silent Enigma (Orchestral)
14. Angelica (Live Budapest 1997)
15. Horses

1. Scars Of The Old Stream

[Instrumental]

2. Everwake

Somniferous whisperings of scarlet fields
Sleep calling me and my dreams are wondrous
My reality abandoned (I traverse afar)
Not a care if I never wake

3. J'fait Une Promesse

The way that the willow bows over the stream
like a mourner crying for their loved one
reminds me of last fall
when on one knee, I pledged myself to you

4. Alone

I gave you my soul
You left me dying

(freezing in the cold wind that screams through
the silence, in the barren wastes of my heart)

Within the walls
Of my mind..... alone
The winter serenade
Fell silent to me

5. Far Away (Acoustic)

One common, subterranean destination
One life, another day
A vestal child unveiled by temptation
Innocence slips away

Far away

Been down so long
Too deep the water that I tread
Sometimes I feel myself going under
Sometimes I envy the dead

6. Eternity (Part 2)

Destiny, Infinity, Eternity

7. Eternity (Part 3) (Acoustic)

So little time
Your crystal eyes gaze into mine
A burning flame
Forever dreaing, dreaming a lie

Trapped inside internal eyes
Caressed by innocence, a sanctuary for your mind
Born alone beneath pale sardonic skies
One love, one life, one sorrow

I won't reproach myself this time
A condemned mman, granted a sweet reprieve
A turn of fate, a genial twist of the knife
Undying affection for life

8. Better off Dead

[Written by Bad Religion]

I'm sorry about the sun
How could I know that you would burn?
And I'm sorry about the moon
How could I know that you'd disapprove

And I'll never make the same mistake
The next time I create the universe
I'll make sure we communicate at length
Oh yeah

But until then, better off dead
A smile on the lips and a hole in the head
Better off dead, yeah better than this
Take it away, 'cause there's nothing to miss

I'm sorry about the world
How could I know you'd take it so bad?

And I'll never make the same mistake
So if you're looking for a patsy
Why not try the entire human race
Just to play it safe

But until then, better off dead
A smile on the lips and a hole in the head
Better off dead, yeah better than this
Take it away, 'cause there's nothing to miss

Better off dead, yeah better off dead
Why don't you try pushing daisies instead?
Better off dead, yeah better off dead
A smi le on the lips and a hole in the head

And I'll never make the same mistake,
The next time I create the universe
I'll make sure you participate
Oh yeah

And I'll never make the same mistake
The next time I create the universe
I'll make sure you participate
Just in case

9. One of the Few

[Written by Pink Floyd]

when you're to land on your feet
what do you do to make ends meet?
teach
make them mad, make them sad, make them add two and two
make them me, make them you, make them do what you want them to
make them laugh, make them cry, make them lie down and die

10. Inner Silence

When the silence beckons,
And the day draws to a close,
When the light of your life sighs,
And love dies in your eyes,
Only then will I realise,
What you mean to me.

11. Goodbye Cruel World

[Written by Pink Floyd]

Goodbye, cruel world,
I'm leaving you today.
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye.

Goodbye all you people,
There's nothing you can say,
To make me change my mind.
Goodbye.

12. Destiny

I tried to murder the lonely,
Contemplate our mortality.

Into infinity,
Frozen memory

Wipe the tears from yesterday,
A time for change, take the pain away.

Angel, my destiny,
Can you feel me?

13. The Silent Enigma (Orchestral)

In dreamland grandeur
I held mesmerised peace
Innocence breathed again

A mind's escape
Leave walls of tears behind
Ethereal vision haunting still...
The solitude left me blind

Beneath an open sky
Sibilant cries of youth dying
Enslave me with grief

A moonlit era, oblivion's twilight kiss
Wishes in lament
Happiness in a broken vision

Utopia still unborn...

Tormented echoes of a fallen Eden
I longed for her beauty
Yet from dust, she returned
The dream, an enigma... silent

14. Angelica (Live Budapest 1997)

Where are you tonight?
Wild flower in starlit heaven
Still enchanted in flight
Obsessions lament to freedom

A timeless word, the meanings changed
But I'm still burning in your flames,
Incessant, lustral mmasquerade,
Unengaged, dilit love didn't taste the same

And I still wonder if you ever wonder the same
And I still wonder...

15. Horses

[Instrumental]

1. Pressure
2. Release
3. Looking Outside Inside
4. Leave No Trace
5. Underworld
6. (Breaking Over The) Barriers
7. Panic
8. A Fine Day To Exit
9. Temporary Peace

1. Pressure

As the pressure grows and these feelings flow
Trample on bodies, bodies in holes of faith
Times I've asked the lord for forgiveness
While kept under a spell of a sweating locust's breath
No need to tell me 'cause it's written on your face
Sliding down now with the black lights shining

I don't care where you go you won't get away from me
Black as the night is day filled with no sympathy
Marching down the hall for a misery
I don't care where you go, you won't get away from me

Mouth tastes of sick, stomach twist inside
Everything's wrong and I can't get away
The gravity of fear you can feel it coming near
It's coming straight for you, it'll twist and drag you down

I don't care where you go, you won't get away from me

2. Release

Seeing is believing but I don't want to know
Walk on through the wasteland I just can't let go
Face down I just break down when I see you cry
All the time

Hold on
Please
Hold on
To me
Tempt fate
Release
Escape

Someone now is screaming as the flames fly high
Think now that we're lost here and we don't know why
Face down I just break down when I see you cry
All the time

Hold on
Please
Hold on
To me
Tempt fate
Release
Escape

Behind those grey and lonely eyes
Unforgotten by time
Reality is dawning
Our spirit is awakening
And somewhere in the hurricane
Hope is waiting
Crying in the distance
And calling out your name

3. Looking Outside Inside

Is this the one who thought it was insane
Coming down against it all

Didn't want it
Didn't need it
Didn't want it

Twisted face of fading beauty
Count the cost of suffering
Cannot see the day before you
Only feel what's deep inside
Try to change it makes no difference

Didn't want it
Didn't need it
Didn't want it

Let me go

Looking outside inside, craving for something
Hoping for anything, I'll believe in anything
Who has eyes that see, who wants to believe?
In something, in anything, in one thing, in freedom

Looking outside inside

Self-assist pandemonium, broken promises
Tired of life, flying high, you caught me in your eye
Disintegrated, incinerated
This is not now I want to be
Too much is coming through, someone please tell me what to do

Looking outside inside

4. Leave No Trace

Born to the glare of the senses
Spoon fed reality infused
A new inherent
Passive contentment
You are so easily amused

Here and now
We are gone in a heartbeat
A dream in the
Passage your time

Chances are failing
This world isn't waiting
The moment is passing you by

Questions lie beneath the surface
The fools are fooled once again
Benign coincidence
We stole our existence
And gladly cast it to the wind

Here and now
We are gone in a heartbeat
A dream in the passage of time

Chances are failing
This world isn't waiting
The moment is passing you by

Slowly spinning on the wind back home

5. Underworld

There's always something
You won't dare to say
Your good intentions
Are boring take me away
If it keeps you sane, then it's okay
If I played it safe, would it save me?

I'd like to get some rest now
If I could just ignore the truth
Scratching at the window
This time I've got to make a move
Ego obliteration
Stand back and watch me melt away
Dissolve all recognition

I've got to burn this weight out of my mind
Running through my veins until I disappear

This feeling is over
This feeling is over me

Climbing up the wall
Going to creep between the cracks
Get out of my skull
Tie the rope around my neck
Destroy all emotion
Going to rip me face to shreds
Cut my eyeballs open

I've got to burn this wait out of my mind
Running through my veins until I disappear

This feeling is over
This feeling is over me

6. (Breaking Over The) Barriers

Floating with nowhere to hide
Unspoken twist back inside

How did we get here?
Life don't belong here

Feel like I just never tried
To find a way back to the outside
It stops me from breathing
Kills all the dreaming

Talking to you from the other side of a wall in my mind
And it's clear that you're near to me
I think I found a way to understand why I couldn't see what was happening
The fear overcame me
Took a trip on the inside, I took a trip on the inside
I try to hold on until this feeling is gone
Break through to the other side, I need to break through to the other side
Of everything that is hurting you

I just can't lay down and die
It takes a lifetime to understand why
It seems that you're near me
But you don't seem to hear me

7. Panic

You know you ain't going nowhere
You're stuck inside while the mind is flying
You said you'd help me in the morning
Twisting on pins into my eyes
And dragging on the ceiling below you
Fixing up the walls with your crooked hands
While you're miles away, miles away, miles away

I didn't think it'll all end up like this
There's spiders on the wall and they stink of piss
Dead heads lying in the corner
Staring at me making me feel bad
I put my hands up to my eyes
But the holes in my palms let me find a way
To corner you

I can feel my chest crushing inwards
Sucking through my skin into my BRAIN
Oxygen pushing on the window cracks in the glass let
It slip away
I start to cry and I keep on laughing
I close my eyes at what's left inside
And then I'll ran away

For all the time this land
For all the time in my hand
Slip around in depth found
Calmness fall once again

Razor blades floating in the warm bath
Air bubbles in your veins turning my hands black
Whispers coming from the next room
Window cleaner keep on SPYING
I put my hands up to my eyes
But the HOLES in my PALMS let me find
A way to corner me

Twelve tonnes hammer for My breakfast
Slipping of the edge in catatonic blood
Multiple decibel inscriptions trying all they
Can in miles an hour... face
Grey and looming downwards
Sniffing all the time for a ounce of silence
Screaming all the way

Numbers counting down inside me
Solar system thoughts circle round my head
False teeth hanging from the ceiling
Feet looking of the goms of the 2nd son
I eat my hands cos my legs are crying
You Broke my neck cause I Snapped my spine
I wish you would Die away

To all the time in this land
And all the time in my hands
Circle Round in depth found
Calmness Fall once again

8. A Fine Day To Exit

Long way from home
Nowhere to go
What made the river so cold?

The sweat of thoughts
Trickle down my brow
Soaking and stinging my eye

You've got to face it head on
So you can turn this thing around
'cause this ain't right

Tell tale sighs and cries
Of dreams unfulfilled
And time is running, running dry

Panic stricken bloodshot hearts
Try to restart
But no longer build the well to survive sweet oblivion

You've got to face it head on
So you can turn this thing around
'cause this ain't right

I've got these feelings and I don't know why
I see all my fears in the darkness of light
What made the river so cold?

Never anyone to rearrange and fall to
Time inside the empty
Call to the blameless, I am faithless
Placid dying eyes

You've got to face it head on
So you can turn this thing around
'cause this ain't right

You have to go eye to eye
Raise your face to the sky
'cause this ain't right

I got to believe when I say
Only this is the way

9. Temporary Peace

Deep inside the silence
Staring out upon the sea
The waves washing over
Half forgotten memories
Deep within the moment
Laughter floats upon the breeze
Rising and falling dying down within me

And I swear I never knew how it could be
And all this time all I had inside was what I couldn't see
I swear I never knew how it could be
All the waves washing over all that hurts inside of me

Beyond this beautiful horizon
Lies a dream for you and I
This tranquil scene is still unbroken by the rumors in the sky
But there's a storm closing in
Voices crying on the wind
This serenade is growing colder breaks my soul that tries to sing
And there's so many, many thoughts
When I try to go to sleep
But with you I start to feel a sort of temporary peace

There's a drift in and out

1. Lovelorn Rhapsody
2. Sweet Tears
3. Sleepless 96
4. Eternal Rise Of The Sun
5. Sunset Of Age
6. Nocturnal Emission
7. A Dying Wish
8. Hope
9. Cries In The Wind
10. Fragile Dreams
11. Empty
12. Nailed To The Cross / 666

1. Lovelorn Rhapsody

I hear your voice
It sings so softly
Curious to join in
A harmony to breathe forevermore

Joyous the one to hear a voice

In fields where grass grows tall
Golden carpets swell and whisper
Autumn trees will weep

Immune to pity, I've grown used to grief
The eternal tear reciprocates

In fields where grass grows tall
Golden carpets swell and whisper
Autumn trees will weep

Dawn breaks open like a wound that bleeds afresh
In bleak misery, the lifeless lie in squandor

Love has left me, fleed from me
Fragrant lust waits beside and dies
Like flowers that wilt without refreshment
In midday sun I sit and bide time
Adorning me, a lovelorn rhapsody

2. Sweet Tears

In each others arms
We cried together
And your tears tasted sweet

All is not lost
And never to be forgotten

Like a shiver down my spine
The lonely nights keep falling
And I still want you

All is not lost
And never to be forgotten

She's passed away but dreaming
Her soul's awake and screaming
The weeping willow is weeping
And beneath our hearts...
.. all joy is sleeping
our bliss is carried away... sweet tears

3. Sleepless 96

And I often sigh
I often wonder why
I'm still here and I still cry

And I often cry
I often spill a tear
Over those not here
But still they are so near

Please ease my burden

And I still remember
A memory and I weep
In my broken sleep
The scars they cut so deep

Please ease my burden
Please ease my pain

Surely without war there would be no loss
Hence no mourning, no grief, no pain, no misery
No sleepless nights missing the dead... Oh, no more
No more war

4. Eternal Rise Of The Sun

An unstoppable end
The world turns every day
An ending with no end

So, for this time of morning
I can no longer cry
Even though the story goes on

The script is being written
Start shape our destiny
We are the bible...

Believe in angels, they believe in you
Oh, spread your wings, there is more than this darkness
Open your eyes, the horizon has no end
You can see forever, you can know all time
You can live forever...

Every dusk can blind, as a sunrise on a day
Every sunset there is, lifts the eternal sunrise
And the sunrise ends when the sun dies...
And every ending has an eternal beginning...
We are the bible...

5. Sunset Of Age

Throne of grief
..in a dying essence
Crying beauty
..the fettered aura

Forgotten oceans of hope
..Betrayed aphony
Sullen laughter in unventured paradise

(as one) forever searching
For landscapes serene
Amidst the sunset of age
With joyous masquerade...
..the summers died

6. Nocturnal Emission

My passion rise... a twilight ride
Stark light of dark night in my eyes

My forlorn lust...
My soul it burns
My forlorn lust...
My soul is burning

Take you now, in my sleep
I want to touch you, to scratch you deep

To leave you scarred...
To see you burn
To leave you scarred...
To see you burning

7. A Dying Wish

I bear the seed of ruin
A golden age turned to stone
Elysium... to dust

For this, a tragic journey
A vision of a dying embrace
Scattered earth
Silence...

Where Echonia wept
I sank into the silent desert

Fallen am I,
In the solitude of a broken promise
..I cried alone
My empyrean is a scar
From the memory of her beautiful life
Forever was her name

Fulfilment lost in a lifetime of regret
Ornate peace would cover me
As I would die now...
For one last wish

8. Hope

[Written by Roy Harper]

When you look at me
From your own century
I may seem to be
Strange archeology
But when the winds blow
From this direction
You may sense me there
In your reflection
I think I feel you
But I will never know
As the swallows leave
And the children grow

I wanted to live forever
The same is you will too
I wanted to live forever
And everybody knew

When I caught you there
In tomorrows mirror
I thought felt you
Jump out of my skin
Throwing oil into
My blazing memories
Filling empty footsteps
I was standing in

I wanted to live forever
The same as you will too
I wanted to live forever
And everybody knew

As the falling rain
Of the northern jungle
Hanging droplets on the leaves
Bombards my brain
I hear you
Across the room
A sea of daffodils spring into bloom
You are the mist
The frost across my window pane
And again

She moves her body
And her whispers weave
And the world spins
And tells me that I'll never want to leave

As I think of you
From this dark century
I will always be
With generosity
That we both may share
The hope in hearing
That we're not just
Spirits disappearing

9. Cries In The Wind

Reaching out...
How things look different on the way down
Disillusioned, I've lost desire
Will I burn in the unforgiving fire?

From the flames, I walk away
I've found a way to erase the pain
An empty bottle, my receptacle
A guardian angel called escape

Don't dwell on the forthcoming
As I know it won't be happening
And you know, when I'm gone
You'll hear my cries on the wind

10. Fragile Dreams

"Tonight your soul sleeps, but one day you will feel real pain,
maybe then you will see me as I am,
A fragile wreck on a storm of emotion"

Countless times I trusted you,
I let you back in,
Knowing... Yearning... you know
I should have run... but I stayed

Maybe I always knew,
My fragile dreams would be broken for you.

Today I introduced myself,
To my own feelings,
In silent agony, after all these years,
They spoke to me... after all these years

Maybe I always knew...

11. Empty

Empty vessel under the sun wipe the dust
from my face another morning black Sunday
coming down again empty vessel empty veins
empty bottle wish for rain that pain again
wash the blood off my face the pulse from
my brain and i feel that pain again

I'm looking over my shoulder cos millions
will whisper I'm killing myself again maybe
I'm dying faster but nothing ever last i
remember a night from my past when i was
stabbed in the back and its all coming
back and i feel that pain again

i abhor you i condemn you cos this pain
will never end you got away without a
scratch and now you're walking on a lucky
path i have to laugh but you'd better watch
your back

theres pathetic opposition they're the
cause of my condition ill be coming back
for them I've a solution for this sad
situation nothing left but to kill myself
again because I'm so empty

12. Nailed To The Cross / 666

Your souls are nailed to the cross
The blood still runs
but the wounds will heal
and leave scars of remembrance.

1. Harmonium
2. Balance
3. Closer
4. Are You There?
5. Childhood Dream
6. Pulled Under 2000 Metres A Second
7. A Natural Disaster
8. Flying
9. Electricity
10. Violence

1. Harmonium

Feel free to comprehend
What I see will never end
It can't be now that life is gone
It's too real to overcome

It's too real
It's too real
It's too real

And these days my hands are tied
These days I think you'll find
I'm not me now a light has died
It's too real to run and hide

I was floating in the water
Something tried to pull me under
I was floating in the water
Something tried to pull me under
I was trying to live my life
It wouldn't let me
Let me let me let me
I was trying to live my life
It wouldn't let me
Let me let me let me

Feel free to comprehend
What I see will never end
I'm not me now a light has died
Its too real to run and hide

I was floating in the water
Something tried to pull me under
I was floating in the water
Something tried to pull me under
I was trying to live my life
It wouldn't let me
Let me let me let me
I was trying to live my life
It wouldn't let me
Let me let me let me

2. Balance

Glad to see your wide awake
This is the great escape
From a life that tried to mould you
And the lie it sold you

What would you do?
What wouldn't you do?
What would you do?
What wouldn't you do?
What would you do?
What wouldn't you do?

Did you try to reason why
Look yourself in the eye
What you are is all you have been
What will be is all you do now

What would you do?
What wouldn't you do?
What would you do?
What wouldn't you do?
What would you do?
What wouldn't you do?

Spill a tear as your sense of self slowly
Melts away
Melts away
Melts away

Until death's mirror reflects
The meaning of our lives
We wander aimless and mesmerised
As the fear starts to rise.

3. Closer

Your dream world is a very scary place
Your dream world is a very scary place
Your dream world is a very scary place
To be trapped

Your dream world is a very scary place
Your dream world is a very scary place
Your dream world is a very scary place
To be trapped inside
To be trapped inside
To be trapped inside
All your life

Shine in time
Shine in time
Shine in time
Until you find

Your closer
Your closer
To the truth

Within you
Within you
Within you
Is the truth

That your dream world is a very scary place
That your dream world is a very scary place
That your dream world is a very scary place
To be trapped inside
To be trapped inside
To be trapped inside
All your life

Your closer
Your closer
Your closer
To the truth

Within you
Within you
Within you
Is the truth

4. Are You There?

Are you there?
Is it wonderful to know
All the ghosts...
All the ghosts...
Freak my selfish out
My mind is happy
Need to learn to let it go
I know you'd do no harm to me

But since you've been gone I've been lost inside
Tried and failed as we walked by the riverside
And I wish you could see the love in her eyes
The best friend that eluded you lost in time
Burned alive in the heat of a grieving mind

But what can I say now?
It couldn't be more wrong
Cos there's no one there
Unmistakably lost and without a care
Did we lose all the love that we could have shared
And its wearing me down
And its turning me round
And I can't find a way
Now to find it out
Where are you when I need you...

Are you there?

5. Childhood Dream

[instrumental]

6. Pulled Under 2000 Metres A Second

Just freedom is only a hallucination
That waits at the edge of the distant horizon
And we are all strangers in global illusion
Wanting and needing impossible heaven

Chasing the dream as they swim out to sea
The mirage ahead says that they can be free
Become lost in delusion drowning their reason
Swept on by the current of selfish ambition

Frightened ashamed and afraid of the blame
The questions are screaming the answers are hiding
The sickness is growing distracted condition
You can feel the disgust and smell the confusion

Lying insane getting soaked in the rain
Draining the sky of the guilt and the shame
The nightmare is coming the clouds are descending
Pulled under two thousand metres a second

Clawing at walls that just slip through my fingers
Darkness consuming collapsing and breaking
Distilled paranoia seeped into the walls
And filled in the cracks with the whispering calls

Shadows are forming take heed of the warnings
Creeping around at four in the morning
Lie to myself start a brand new beginning
But I'm losing my time in this fear of living

Freedom is only a hallucination
That waits at the edge of the places you go when you dream
Deep in the reason betrayal of feeling
The mistakes that I made tore my conscience apart at the seems

Freedom is only a hallucination
That waits at the edge of the places you go when you dream...

Freedom is only a hallucination
That waits at the edge of the places you go when you dream
Deep in the reason betrayal of feeling
The mistakes that I made tore my conscience apart at the seems

Freedom is only a hallucination
That waits at the edge of the places you go when you dream...

7. A Natural Disaster

It's been a long cold winter without you
I've been crying on the inside over you
Just slipped through my fingers as life turned away
It's been a long cold winter since that day

It's hard to find
Hard to find
Hard to find the strength now but I try
And I don't want to
Don't want to
Don't want to go on and speak now
Of what's gone by
Cos no matter what I say
No matter what I do
I cant change what happened
No matter what I say
No matter what I do
I cant change what happened

You just slipped through my fingers
And I feel so ashamed
You just slipped through my fingers
And I have paid

Cos no matter what I say
No matter what I do
I cant change what happened
No matter what I say
No matter what I do
I cant change what happened
No no I can't change

Just slipped through my fingers
And I feel so ashamed
You just slipped through my fingers
And I have paid.

8. Flying

Started a search to no avail
A light that shines behind the veil trying to find it
And all around us everywhere
Is all that we could ever share if only we could see it
Feel there's truth that's beyond me
Life ever changing weaving destiny

And it feels like I'm flying above you
Dream that I'm dying to find the truth
Seems like your trying to bring me down
Back down to earth back down to earth

Layers of dust and yesterdays
Shadows fading in the haze of what I couldn't say
And though I said my hands were tied
Times have changed and now I find I'm free for the first time
Feel so close to everything now
Strange how life makes sense in time now

And it feels like I'm flying above you
Dream that I'm dying to find the truth
Seems like your trying to bring me down
Back down to earth back down to earth
Back down to earth back down to earth x2

9. Electricity

Seems like you never really knew me
Seems like you never understood me
Seems like you never really knew how to feel
But electricity it drew you near to me
What you needed was to be rid of me

There were times you really made me smile
And there were times you really made me cry
And there were times I never really knew how to feel
But electricity it drew you near to me
What you needed was to be rid of me
And the fear made you so unsure of me
What you needed was to be rid of me.

But electricity it drew you near to me
What you needed was to be rid of me
And the fear made you so unsure of me
What you needed was to be rid of me.

10. Violence

1. A Simple Mistake

1. A Simple Mistake

Think for yourself you know what you need in this life
See for yourself and feel your soul come alive tonight
Here in the moment we share, trembling between the worlds we stare
Out at starlight enshrined, veiled like diamonds in..

...time can be the answer, take a chance, lose it all
It's a simple mistake to make to create love and to fall
So rise and be your master you don't need to be a slave
Of memory ensnared in a web, in a cage

I have found my way to fly free from the constraints of time
I have soared through the sky seen life far below in mind
Breathed in truth, love, serene, sailed on OCEANS OF BELIEF
Searched and found life inside, we're not just a moment in time...

....can be the answer, take a chance lose it all
It's a simple mistake to make to create love and to fall
So rise and be your master you don't need to be a slave
Of memory ensnared in a web, in a cage

[spoken words from "Defending Middle-Earth Tolkien: Myth and Modernity" by Patrick Curry:]
Despair is for people who know, beyond any doubt, what the future is going to bring.
Nobody is in that position.
So despair is not only a kind of sin, theologically, but also a simple mistake, because nobody actually knows.
In that sense there always is hope.

1. Everything

1. Everything

Needed time to clear my mind
Breathe the free air find some peace there
I used to keep my heart in jail
But the choice was love or fear of pain and

I...

Chose...

Love...

Cos everything is energy and energy is you and me...

Light shines in through an open window
Shines inside your heart and soul and
Light will guide your way through time
And love will help you heal your mind and

Life...

Will...

Be..

Cos everything is energy and energy is you and me...

1. Angels Walk Among Us

1. Angels Walk Among Us

(only you can heal inside,
only you can heal your life)

it must have been an angel
who counted out the time
yes it must have been an angel
who raised a knowing smile
and I just couldn't reach you
no matter how I tried
no I just couldn't reach you
so instead I ran to hide

(only you can heal inside,
only you can heal your life)

mother can you hear me?
can you tell me, are you there?
father can you help me?
cos I know that you care
and I don't have to fight it anymore
for all those years I was dreaming
and I don't have to worry anymore
cos I found my belief in...
mother can you hear me?
can you tell me are you there?
father can you help me?
cos I know that you care

(only you can heal inside,
only you can heal your life)

عنوان: بيوگرافي السبت يناير 12, 2008 10:30 pm

گروه Anathema آناتما از مرکز شهر ليورپول به تمام هوادارانش درود می‌فرستد. در تابستان سال ۱۹۹۰ گروهی ۵ نفره‌شان تشکيل شد. گروه در ابتدا با نام Pagan Angel شروع به فعاليت بهمراه صدای قوی و خشن خواننده نمود. آنها سبک نمونه دوم متال Doom Metal را با زمينه‌ بزرگی از تواناييهائی که در اختيار داشتند برگزيدند. گروه در نوامبر سال ۱۹۹۰ برای ضبط اولين آهنگ خود با نام An Iliad of Woes وارد استوديوئی محلی شدند. با ارائه اين دمو در ژانويه سال ۱۹۹۱ آنان تصميم به عوض کردن نام گروه به Anathema آناتما گرفتند که برگرفته شده بود از عبارتی در کتاب مقدس به معنی لعنت خدا. آناتما بوسيله اجرای مشترک با گروههائی نظير Bolt Thrower و Paradise Lost حمايت شد. در ميان همين اجراها پايگاهی جدی در ليورپول از طرفدارانشان شکل گرفت که آرام آرام و با گذشت زمان تا سراسر اروپا گسترش پيدا کرد. چند ماه بعد آنان با تمرينهای جديشان تصميم به ورود به همان استوديوی محلی برای ضبط اثر افسانه‌ای خود با نام All Faith is Lost را گرفتند. آلبومی با همين نام در جولای ۱۹۹۱ منتشر شد. آنها با عرضه اين آلبوم سروصدای جنجال‌برانگيزی در مجله‌ها و کلوپهای زيرزمينی ايجاد کردند که سود قابل توجهی نصيب آنها گرداند. آهنگ They Die از اين آلبوم در کشور سوئيس منتشر و بوسيله شرکت Witchunt Records ضبط شد که آنهم موفقيتهائی را برای آنها بهمراه داشت. در اولين اجرای زنده گروه تمامی بليطها پيش‌فروش شد. شرکت Peaceville Records با آنها تماس برقرار کرد تا ضبط آهنگ Lovelorn Rhapsody را متحمل شود و در اکتبر سال ۱۹۹۲ منتشر شد. آناتما نام آلبوم بعدی خود را The Crestfallen EP نهادند و آنرا در نوامبر همان سال روانه بازار کردند. اين آلبوم توسط گروه Hammy تهيه شد. گروه بعد از انتشار اين آلبوم تصميم به برگزاری توری در انگلستان گرفت که از سوی گروه امريکائی Cannibal Corpse حمايت شدند. تور با هنرنمايی گروه آناتما به موفقيت بزرگی دست يافت. آنها در اين کنسرتها خيلی قوی ظاهر شدند. آناتما ديگر تبديل به يک گروه باهوش و فعال شده بودند و به محض رهايی از پروژه‌ای بسرعت درگير کار و ايده‌های جديد خودشان می‌شدند. آلبوم Serenades در استوديوی آکادمی ضبط شد و در فوريه سال ۹۳ عرضه گشت. اين آلبوم بعنوان بهترين آلبوم ماه برگزيده شد و بخاطر آن نشان Metal Hammer را از آن خود کردند. حتی آلبومشان در شبکه عظيم تلويزيونی MTV هم بعنوان آلبوم ماه شناخته شد. با بدست آوردن اين افتخارات آناتما وارد Kerrang شد و شماره ۲ جدول موسيقی امريکا شدند. ويدئوی آهنگ Sweet Tears در کانال MTV طرفداران زيادی را به خود جذب کرد و باعث اضافه شدن هواداران آناتما گرديد. گروه اقدام به برگزاری تور و شرکت در فستيوال و اجرای برنامه‌های پی‌در‌پی نمود که می‌توان از شرکت در ۱۵ تور و فستيوالهای کوتاه اروپائی و نمايش بهمراه گروه My Dying Bride و At The Gates بطور مشترک و چند اجرا با گروه At The Gates نام برد. آنها همچنين ظهور ويژه‌ای در برنامه Headbangers Ball که متعلق به شبکه MTV بود داشتند و پله‌پله به شهرت نزديک می‌شدند. در ژانويه سال ۱۹۹۴ اولين تور کامل دور اروپای خود را به اجرا گذاشتند و در فستيوالهايی که در کشورهای رومانی، هلند و بلژيک برگزار می‌شد شرکت نمودند. در همان سال برای ضبط آلبومی کوچک که مدتهايی طولانی انتظارش را می‌کشيدند، وارد استوديو شدند. در آگوست آن سال برای اجرا در فستيوال Independant Rock که قرار بود در کشور برزيل و چند کشور اروپائی ديگر برگزار شود، شرکت کردند. پس از موفقيهای پی‌در‌پی، آلبوم بعدی آنها با نام Pentecost III با استقبال چندانی مواجه نشد که شکستی برای آناتمای ديگر معروف محسوب می‌شد. تا اينکه در ماه می سال ۱۹۹۵ تغييراتی در گروه داده شد. خواننده گروه Darren White آنها را ترک گفت و گروه مجبور به استخدام عضو جديد گرديد. کار خوانندگی به دست گيتاريست گروه يعنی Vinnie Cavanagh سپرده شد. پس از انتشار اين آلبوم، گروه تصميم به برگزاری توری در انگلستان گرفت. با اين کار آنها اين شانس را به هوادارانشان دادند که تغيير سبک در خوانندگی را از نزديک لمس کنند. در اکتبر سال ۱۹۹۵ گروه اقدام به نشر آلبومی جديد با نام The Silent Enigma نمود که با تغيير محسوس سبک به موفقيت بزرگی نيز دست يافت. مخصوصا درخشش خواننده جديد بهمراه گروه که تلفيقی از تنظيم‌های ارکستری و ملوديهای غمناک با صدايی باشکوهتر از صدای خواننده قبلی که همه آنها دست‌به‌دست هم داده تا گروه به آرزوهای خود نزديکتر شود. آلبوم باشکوه بعدی آنها با نام Eternity در نوامبر سال ۱۹۹۶ عرضه شد که پيشرفت موسيقيائی برتری بهمراه رسيدن به نقطه اوج سبک را گواهی می‌نمود. در حاليکه با انتشار اين آلبوم و توليد آهنگهايی بزرگ همانند Hope و Eternity Part 2 و Angelica مورد تحسين رسانه‌ها قرار گرفته بودند، گاهی اوقات هم از آنها انتقاد می‌شد. تلفيقی از سازهای بادی با ملوديهايی که شباهتهای زيادی با کارهای پينک فلويد داشت بهمراه وضوح صدای خواننده ترکيب کاملی را ايجاد کردند. بازهم پس از توليد اين آلبوم آنها در فستيوالها و تورهای کامل بدور اروپا شرکت کردند. آناتما همچنان راهش را با بدست آوردن طرفداران پروپا قرص ادامه می‌داد. اولين ويدئوی کامل آنها در می همان سال با نام A Vision of A Dying Embrace که شامل تمام پيشرفتهای آنها با هم بود، می‌شد. در قسمتهايی از اين ويدئو اجراهای زنده آنها در کراکو و لهستان که بوسيله گروه My Dying Bride حمايت می‌شد، قابل رويت است. هرچند موفقيت برای آنها هنوز هم ارزش داشت اما آنها تصميم به تعويض درامر گروه John Douglas گرفتند که سريعا Shaun Steels را جايگزين او نمودند. در بين زمانيکه درامر عوض شد گروه شروع به کار کردن بروی چند آهنگ از گروههای مختلف نمود که از برجسته‌ترين آنها می‌توان به آهنگهای معروفی از پينک فلويد مانند One of The Few از آلبوم The Final Cut و Goodbye Cruel World از آلبوم The Wall اشاره نمود. شايان ذکر است که راجر واترز سازنده اصلی اين آهنگها از درام در آنها استقاده نکرده است. اثر خارق‌العاده و مشهور آنها به سال ۱۹۹۸ و با عنوان Alternative 4 منتشر شد. تفاوت جنس موسيقيائی در اين آلبوم بخاطر دخالتهای پررنگ بيسيست گروه Duncan Patterson بخوبی قابل درک است که آلبوم را تا حدودا ٪۸۰ در انحصار خود قرار داد. البته او در آلبوم قبليشان آثاری از خود بجای گذاشت که معروفترين آنها همان آهنگ سه قسمتی Eternity می‌باشد. از جمله آهنگهايی که در اين آلبوم فکر شنونده را می‌تواند مدتها به خود معطوف کند می‌توان به Shroud of False، Lost Control، Inner Silence، Alternative 4 و Regret اشاره کرد. بعد از درخشش آلبوم موفق Alternative 4 تعويض ناموفق گروه منجر به رکود موسيقی آنان در آلبومهای بعدی شد که آن تعويض بيسيست گروه Duncan Patterson با عضو جديد Dave Pybus بود. بعلاوه Martin Powell نوازنده کيبورد گروه My Dying Bride بطور پاره‌ وقت به آنها ملحق شد. در حرکت جالب توجه ديگر آنها John Douglas درامر و عضو سابق گروه در روزهای پايانی سال به آنها پيوست. آلبوم بعدی آنها با نام Judgement در ژوئن سال ۱۹۹۹ منتشر شد که با انتقاد جنجال برانگيزی مواجه شد. از آهنگهايی که در اين آلبوم حرفی برای گفتن داشتند می‌توان به آهنگ One Last Good-bye، Deep و Emotional Winter اشاره نمود. گروه در همان سال در فستيوال Dynamo شرکت کرد. Martin Powell به گروه Cradle of Filth پيوست و کيبورديست قديمی Cradle of Filth که با آناتما در تورهايشان همکاری داشت بطور عضو دائم در گروه شروع به فعاليت کرد. کمی قبل از انتشار آلبوم بعديشان با نام A Fine Day to Exit بيسيست گروه Dave Pybus کسيکه ديگر نتوانسته بود جای Duncan Patterson را در آناتما چه برای هواداران و چه در عرصه آهنگسازی بگيرد اعلام کرد که قصد ترک کردن گروه را دارد تا بيس گروه Cradle of Filth را بعهده گيرد و اين کار را انجام داد. George Roberts دوست قديمی آنها که قدم در جهت برگزاری تورهای آناتما برداشت و کسيکه دورادور از اخبار آناتما مطلع بود بعنوان نيمه وقت جايگزين بيسيست ناموفق گروه شد. در سال ۲۰۰۲ Danny Cavanagh خواستار ترک گروه شد. طی اين امر Duncan Patterson عضو فعال، موفق و قديمی گروه دوباره به آناتما برگشت. در خلال اين جريانات آنها تصميم به انتشار بهترين‌ آهنگهای خود با نام Resonance 2 گرفتند شامل کارهای قديمی‌شان هم می‌شد. که کاملا نماد يک شکست در پی جريانات ترک اعضاء از گروه بود. هنوز هيچ خبری از آينده آناتما توسط هيچ رسانه‌ای داده نشده است. به اميد رسيدن دوباره آناتما به روزهای اوج و فرار از حيطه غرور.

Artist: Anathema

Album: Judgment

Year: 1999

Title: Wings Of God

No one can find me

هیچکس نمیتواند مرا دریابد

Here in my soul

اینجا درون روح و هستی ام

Kicking and screaming

تقلا میکنم و فریاد می کشم

Out of control

و اینها همه از کنترلم خارج است

Calm myself down

خودم را آرام می کنم

Nobody knows

هیچکس نمی داند

No one can find me

هیچکس نمی تواند مرا دریابد

Here in my soul

اینجا درون روح و هستی ام

Hooked on your problems

با مشکلات خود درگیر میشوید

Do I know why

آیا من میدانم چرا

And if you come my way again

و اگر تو دوباره به مسیر من بازگردی

Would I lend a hand

آیا من تمایل دارم دست یاری به تو دهم

Would I understand

ایا من مایلم تورا درک کنم

Solitude was never seen as loneliness

تنهایی هیچ وقت به دیده تنهایی نگریسته نشد

And things need time

و مسائل برای حل شدن نیاز به زمان دارند

And time leads to other things

و زمان باعث رخ دادن اتفاقات دیگر میشود

And playing roles

و ما نقش هایی را ایفا می کنیم

Which are limited

که محدود شده هستند

By the poor fund of knowledge

بوسیله اطلاعات ناچیزی که ما معرفت داریم

In this sick, sick world

در این آشفتگی، در این دنیای آشفته

We all fall down

همه ما سقوط می کنیم

Once in a while

یکبار در یک لحظه ای که

Escaping the law of the unexplained pains

می گریزیم از قوانین درد و رنج های تعریف نشده

عنوان: رد: AnathemA السبت يناير 12, 2008 10:34 pm

Forgotten Hopes
اميدهاي فراموش‌شده

Hey you rotting in your alcoholic shell
Banging on the walls of your intoxicated mind
Do you ever wonder why you were left alone
As your heart grew colder and finally turned to stone

آهاي تو كه در صدف الكلي‌ات داري مي‌پوسي
خودت را به ديوارهاي ذهن سرخوشانه‌ات مي‌كوبي
تاكنون هيچ تعجب نكردي كه چرا تنهايت گذارده‌اند
قلبت همين‌طور سرد مي‌شود تا در پايان به سنگ بدل شود

Did I punish you for dreaming?
Did I break your heart and leave you crying?
Don't you ever dream of escaping...

آيا تو را بخاطر روياپردازي مجازات كردم؟
آيا قلب تو را شكستم و تو را گريان تنها گذاردم؟
تو هرگز در روياي فرار نبودي…

Pathetic oblivion
Forgotten hopes buried in your soul's lonely grave
Pathetic oblivion
Remember how you were before you locked your heart away

فراموشي رقت‌انگيز
اميدهاي فراموش‌شده در تنهايي روحت مدفون شده‌اند
فراموشي رقت‌بار
بياد بياور كه چگونه بودي پيش از آنكه (درهاي) قلبت را قفل كني

Did I punish you for dreaming?
Did I break your heart and leave you crying?
Do you ever dream of escaping...
Don't you ever dream of escaping?

آيا تو را بخاطر روياپردازي مجازات كردم؟
آيا قلب تو را شكستم و تو را گريان تنها گذاردم؟
آيا هرگز در روياي فرار بودي…
اصلا تا بحال خواب فرار را ديده‌اي؟